What a small world! -.-'

"Many a man claims to have unfailing love,
but a faithful man who can find?" ---------Proverbs 19:6

!?!!!! ....that verse.....it stung me and leapt at me, as if the Word is alive and talking to me. Almost choked on my dog biscuit that I was nibbling.

Spent that night looking at the ceiling on my bed, thinking about that verse instead of loitering aimlessly around Lot 1. I do not know how to describe that feeling, that mixture of regret, sadness, confusion, anger, self-pity....

How can I claim to have unfailing love? What makes me think that I am what it takes---the one and only one?etc etc etc. That night, my conscience gave me a thorough tongue-lashing past midnight.

Finally, I decided to stop pitying and torturing myself. The only person that is perfect and always loving----the most qualified person to take care of the Desert Rose's every needs.....is my Lord Jesus Christ.

It took God's word to realise how immaturely childish I was, how foolhardy I was in this ...pseudo relationship. No wonder so many people are so cynical towards marriage, sadly. This time, I personally extinguish all wishful hopes.

And the rose shall lie in the rubbish heap forever.