Pain

Pain occurs when you realise that you are not as fit as before. Pain strikes when you see your goal crushed before your very eyes. I can blame everything from the weather to the unfamiliar route; to even the AHM training I had two days ago. But I must never forget; I am the sole cause of my failure.

Overconfidence. One year ago, I ranted upon how pull-up made me miss my $100. Just train pullups then; everything next year should be a breeze. Or so I thought. And so I did. Every single pullup bar that I came across, I pulled my body up. Little did I know that this time, it was not pullup that strained my muscles; but my flexibility, my leg power and my stamina.

It is ironic that I was at my fittest at secondary school, followed by JC and my worst was during the army. Damn. Damnit. Argh. ARgh. Looks like I never pushed myself hard enough.

Eddie consoled me by saying I am growing older. Despite his sincere intentions, I do not feel better. It is like saying my shoes are worn out.

Tomorrow. Have to trudge my way back to camp, as someone had happily volunteered my name to do server duty 24hours. Thanks man.

<p>It is hard to ignore when ex-Rafflesians around are in grief. Even those that are distantly related feel a tinge of sadness. Abba Lord will take good care of her. Selah.