Loss of Me

With hands trembling, I realised that I have morphed into a totally different person when I was engrossed in Counterstrike. It had brought out the worst in me. It was as if Mr Hyde had all along existed, waiting for the most vulnerable moment to strike. Now it has revealed its true self. For the past 2 hours, another person had taken over. No shame, no remorse.

Violence and frustration is a deadly concoction. I am scared. Felt lethargic and spent after hours of revelry and swearing. Somehow, my sense of control eluded me at that time. From now on, CS must remain hidden, until I am mentally strong to face the beast again.