Hate
Was thinking of apologising for being a tad rude. After what he said to my mother and threatened her (with me in mind), FORGET IT Now I finally understand why my elder sis left our home to rather seek a rent somewhere. What can beat freedom under such opression?
IF YOU CAN THINK MONEY CAN BUY ME, forget it. I believe in reciprocricy. Damn you. Always threatening my mother, my two sisters, thinking you are always right. If you think you are the only one that can be violent, think again. I'm just showing you respect as a figurehead. Most of the time, I do not intervene when you discipline. But sometimes you push it too far. And my patience has limits. Money money money. Is that what you think about? A sad life indeed. Always tried to convince me that HE contributes to the family welfare, by paying 10%downpayment for everything, comparing the amount he paid to my mother's. Never spared a thought for my mother. DID YOU ADD UP THE DAILY ALLOWANCES she has to fork up for my sister and I? What about cutting off an internet line in the so-called attempt to save money? She even has to foot the internet bill, which he freely used. My mother also has to buy dinner for my sis and I. Damn you, did you even think about that? You paid even my A Levels with a grudging heart. You said you wanted to support me through education? What hypocricy.I have been bottling up my anger and resentment for too long. You even attempted to control my freedom of thought. I have already agreed to your terms, yet this is what you do? Yet despite all this, credit must be given to him. On his attempts to mollycurdly me. I appreciate that. That's why I am the only child that agreed to support you when you grew old. But I had the intention in mind to support both my parents, not you only. The question that you have been asking: Who will I follow if you divorce? My answer to that is neither, since like Taiwan, if you cause the divorce I cannot support you. Still remember my elder sis telling me that her boyfriend was quite surprised that HE unsubletly reminded her that it was HE that paid for her diapers, milk powder when she was young. This is the last straw.
The reason why I am so goofy (and talks stuffs out of point) in school is that I want to pretend that nothing happens. That it is alright. Somehow I can control it well. Maybe I was wrong, maybe I need to see Mrs Chan soon.
Next time when I marry, I must not follow the path of my father. I must love my wife as how Yahweh loves his people. Whether my child be a son or daughter, I want to love him or her the same way. There will be no such thing as the hated word favouritism EVER AGAIN. Anyway, heard from Ginway that the Desert Rose was stressed. Just hope she recovers soon.
Amendment from previous post: Thankfully, I have great friends that are forgiving. Shall follow their example. For the sake of the Treetop Community, I shall forgive. After all, which man is perfect. I am probably guilty of commiting the same error to others as well. Just that my threshold level was very low, coupled with the provocation in the above, for the need to vent my anger.