You're Not Alone

On our way back, with Raymond and I left on the train, I could sense a tinge of sadness in Raymond's voice. He will not be seeing Singapore for the next two weeks due to confinement. Had to console him; I promised that I will send him SMS on Saturday and Sunday. I am hoping this small gesture can lift his spirits up.

Discussed about army life after BMT. Raymond is resigned to his fate that he is going to SISPEC, due to the tough competition in Hawk company. Sometimes, I wonder whether it was a blessing in disguise that I enter Scorpion because of my screwed-up NAPFA results; since it is extremely competitive and tough in Hawk and other companies.

Told him that we must aim to go to mainland after BMT, anywhere but Tekong. One day

we might even end up as comrades (either as men or officer cadets in the same section). At least we must have a goal to work towards to. Encouraged him (his physique is already at tip top condition, mine isn't yet), despite the current struggles and all.

Still remembered the day after field camp during service. Tears of joy and sadness streamed down my cheeks upon seeing other worshippers, despite my sincerest efforts to contain them. It left a bittersweet memory in me. Vividly remembered the scene when I was hearing the insects buzz alone, hoping that somehow, somewhere, there is at least someone that cared for me. My hands were lacerated by jack-knife wounds and thorns (could have been infected by tetanus and typhoid many times, as I did not receive any vaccinations, thankfully I survived) ; my body exhausted from the physical exertion of combat drills...

At last, Raymond have to go off at Tampines. Told him to take care. You're not alone, my friend.