The Desert Rose (Wednesday, 2nd June 2004)

Looking back at the events that have happened in the past two months, I realised that I have done the Desert Rose many wrongs. Made it too obvious that I like her, and she must have interpreted it as a sign of desperation. I heard in a tape a long time ago that desperation is the fastest way to lose a girl.

Shifted to the corner seats at the start of the year just to admire at her from afar, although I tried to seat with the class as close as possible. Silly me. Never thought of what happens if she discovers. On the bright side, I have made a few friends at the corner seats. I was accepted as being part of their cliques (or clicks?) in addition to my classmates. The corner seats have become our territory, and lectures have become much more fun talking everything under the sun with them. (to put it crudely, talking kock) :)

Still, I must resolve the issue with the Desert Rose. It was screwed up the day I gave her the rose. Have myself only to blame, as I should have kept my infatuation a secret. Now that the only way of communication between the both of us has been cut off, I guess that I must muster the courage to apologise to her personally, for all the screw-ups and embarrassment that I have caused to her. I do not know how, or when, but I really hope that our normal friendship can be restored, I do not wish for more.

Goal: Somehow I must isolate her from her friends, clear up this issue with her, even if it will cause me immense embarrassment....